Friday, September 26, 2008

Taking off for a Day and SNAGS

  

Another week that went not quite according to plan.  Oh, what a week.  Becky is not doing well at all.  In fact, worse.  I really never thought I'd be going through this again with another child of mine.  It never gets easier.

She saw the doctor on Tues.  I went.  We had great hope that things would get somewhat better.  Not to be.....she did not tolerate the one medicine at all.  She has been nauseous and now throwing up non-stop and no sleep.  The anxiety became far worse. She texted me all night last night.  I'm exhausted.  She called the doctor at 5 am.  He got back to her within five minutes.  She is still taking the anti-anxiety but stopped the anti-depressant until she sees him Tues; then back to square one again.  Been there; done that in my life way back when but not so much was at stake for me.  I'm scared to death that she will not be able to stay in the Ph.d program which is a paid fellowship; scared to death.  She has invested so much blood, sweat and tears has gone into her education and only has less than 3 years to go.

Today was a nightmare for her.  Megan is off to Penn State for the weekend.  Becky begged me to spend the night.  I have to drive back to Pittsburgh in a short while.  This is going to be a rough night.  I can't do anything for her but watch her suffer.  I'm so dreading this.  I have to get back home tomorrow but I know she won't want me to leave.

Please, please continue with good thoughts, prayers, etc.  I have to get home tomorrow.  She hates to be alone but won't come up here because she wants her comfort zone.  Ugh....my head hurts but my heart aches so much more.

Love you all.....CHRIS

 

         

23 comments:

lisa41076 said...

Chris, sending up prayers for Becky, Hugs Lisa

bhbner2him said...

God bless you all, sweetie!  -  Barbara

sunnybethe said...

Of course Becky will be in my thoughts and blessings.  Hang in there Mom....hugs,  Bethe

nightmaremom said...

awwwwwwwwww {{{Chris}}} know I'm sending prayers, good thoughts, and strength.
love ya
d

mcknansmom said...

try to get her out of the house.  that will be very hard, but it could be very good for her.
and of course she is in our prayers.  I have been in this shape myself.  it sucks.
take care
tina

lanurseprn said...

I'm so sorry Chris. I know you feel helpless. It's a rough situation and I will keep you all in my prayers.
Love you, Pam xoxox

chat2missie said...

when you have time, email me and let me know what meds she's on.  Maybe I can give you some suggestions. It took months of trying to find the right one for Nicci.  I feel so bad for her and you!
Missie

jckfrstross said...

praying for you

Deb

bojgill4375 said...

Sooo sorry for your daughter. Will keep her in my prayers. I went through something like that when hubby was in Okinawa (had girlfriend). Lost weight, could not sleep, cried, but a tiny little nerve pill helped me. A tiny little white one. Don't know the name of it. It was in 1971. Doctor also gave me a little peach colored triagle pill to help me not get sick when I ate. I sure wish I could help more, but will sure keep her in my prayers. Will keep you in my prayers too. Hugs, Janie

hugsdoodlewacky said...

((((((((((((((((((((CAB)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))I am so sorry to hear your Daughter is going through so much and I know it is worrying you so much.Just know I am praying.

redpoppy007 said...

I have been where she is..I survived and got well. She wil too, it is hard but with the right meds, and love and support from her family she can do it.

springangel235 said...

For sure my prayers go out to Becky...and the hopes that Tues. appointment will bring answers and a better treatment.  Your worry is one we all deal with...a Mom always goes through the rough times and we can't do anything but stand by and wait...and watch...wanting to do more.  I feel for you so.  May your Saturday be a restful one...if possible, also for Becky too!
Many hugs and love,
Jouce

springangel235 said...

I forgot to say...I loved your snags...got them both!!!
Love you!
Joyce

pprrrr39 said...

Chris

I am so very sorry to hear that Becky is not doing too well. I have suffered from these problems for years and now ind myself in the situation where i am now.
She needs to get out, but saying that i know how hard it is...... i suffer from the comfort zone situation and its evil....... you can only do what you can for her, she is the one that has to make that step no matter how hard it is.
My heartfelt prayers go out to you all. I do hope that the doctor can help but it is trial and error ....what works for one might not work for another, I hope that they can come up with one that will help her and that she will soon be feeling better
Take care
hugs Jayne

queeniemart said...

if you need to talk, call me. I am SO sorry and this has weighed heavy on my mind..i read it Fri before going to work. I can not imagine what you are feeling but know you have MANY, including me, praying for you and your sweet and beautiful daughter. You are a wonderful, supportive loving mom and i know this is hurting you so and i pray to God she gets the relief and peace she so very much wants and needs. I love you ALWAYS.

glensfork4 said...

Prayers Chris.....


Michele

sugarsweet056 said...

Love the tags! :)
Sorry to hear of Becky, am praying for her (& for you). May God send an angel to stand beside you, & look over her.
God bless,
Sugar

lv2trnscrb said...

((((Chris/Becky)))) I'm so sorry; I'm glad that she saw the doctor; you know as I know that it sometimes takes several tries to get the right medication; hopefully the anti-anxiety med will take an edge off of it and the next antidepressant will be a good choice for her; keeping her in my prayers; so thankful you are close enough to go to her and at least sit with her; sometimes that is the best thing; a mom close by (as hard as it is for us moms) (((Chris)))

betty

tpiez4me said...

So very sorry to read this.....poor Becky.  Been there myself and I know it's not an easy time for her, but it will get better.  I hope it won't affect school....a doctor's note should help with that.  Becky needs to focus on getting better first.
She's afraid she can't make it alone.  Trust me girl YOU CAN!!
Love from NC
Sharon

hrt2heart615 said...

Oh, Chris.. I am so sorry that Becky is going through so much anxiety and sickness right now.  Bless her heart!  You know you and the girls and the BF are always in my prayers.. but, I will say a special one for Becky.  I do hope she feels better..

Love  you
Jackie

lilysparadise said...

Sending prayers your way, for Becky. Loved your tags, also.
Sincerely, Rose~*

nay0114 said...

Oh Chris I am thinking of you and Becky and I hope things work out soon. I would hate for her to loose all she has worked for and I want her to feel better.
Take care and Hugs, Chrissie

nelishianatl said...

Oh Chris, I hate to hear it's so hard for her.  Thank God you are willing to be there for her.  You guys will be in my prayers and I'll be thinking of you.

Hugs,

Nelishia
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