2006 is quickly closing and 2007 is approaching. Maintaining my two journals was never much of a problem because I kept the two separate. Decisions, decisions...never an easy task for me. Today I will update my personal life in this journal as my worries traveling into 2007 are worries which would compromise my children.
I'm ending 2006 much the same as 2005; ill. Becky was very sick on Christmas Day. I started feeling yucky on Wed. when she called and said she had a positive strep test. It was a given that I would end up with strep, and I did. I went yesterday for a throat culture. I should be up and running to bring in the New Year; last year I was flat on my back.
My meltdown before Christmas was due to my deep concern with Megan. My BF had gone to eat at the restaurant Megan is a waitress at. He called me as soon as he got home and said he thought Megan was deeply concerned about her grades at college. It has been a growing concern of mine. Her university is an old, prestigious university in Pittsburgh. The cost of tuition is totally outrageous. It's extremely difficult to be accepted into it but her high school grades were excellent. Her grades are lacking now. She did screw up the first semester last year because of too much party time and not enough studying. After a discussion and my enforcing the fact that I would not co-sign any more huge loans, she buckled down but did no better the second semester. She was crushed and spoke with her advisor and professors. Starting the junior year semester this fall, she attacked it with total concentration....then in the midst of midterms came the cervical cancer diagnosis. She blew them, which I can readily understand. She request a tutor and was being tutored by her intermediate accounting professor; yet, still, she got a "D" in that course. Decisions need to be made by Jan. 8th. Megan is so upset by all of this and won't discuss options. Her advisor is arrogant. I've spokenwith him before as Megan signed a full waiver when she started her schooling.
She thinks I want her to drop out of school. That is not my intention. She needs to take Int. Acct. 1 over again. Loans will not pay for a course failed. The course will be $3,000 out of pocket. Megan's grades on tests and quizzes are A's and B's. Megan test scores on midterms and finals are awful. I'm questioning the fact that she got a "D" in a course while being tutored by the professor.
At this point in time, I am dropping on my knees and passing this onto God. I plan to make some phone calls and appts. with some folks at the university on Jan 2 when they reopen.
Sorry, this is so long...last year Megan did the accounting for both the professional honors business fraternity she was accepted into despite her grades and also for her regular sorority. She has since given up the accounting duties as it was spreading her time too thin. My point is I drove her to Pittsburgh to an accounting firm which handles the overall accounting for these fraternities last spring. She was only supposed to keep a running tally of all the transactions. In actuality, she had completely done all the accounting on numerous Excel spreadsheets. The accountants were in awe so the child understands the ins and outs of accounting but can't apply it to course work. Somehow, she is missing the professors' expectations.
So, this is my deep concern as we enter 2007. Far too much time and funding has been invested in this university. Somehow, someway, Megan has to find the magic link to make this all click. She still has three semesters in which she could bring her GPA up. Will she? I simply have no clue. She is confused and frustrated beyond belief right now. Mama wants to make it all better. I would like her to switch majors but she is taking that the wrong way. So, it's one week later and everything is still up in the air...not a situation that I care for but nothing can be done until the school reopens.
Sorry I rambled on so long. Thisis just eating away at me. I've never had to encounter anything like this. My BF has provided enormous support with this as that was his major. Megan will listen to him. It's hard for me to discuss anything about this with her as she feels I'm being judgmental.
On the shelf this goes for a few more days until steps can be taken. Thanks for putting up with my venting!!
HUGS & LOVE to all.......CHRIS
(A couple of snags or tags. The same background but, of course, I've been playing with it. I found some older things on my hard drive that I will put up later.)