Monday, April 21, 2008

Peaks and Valleys/SNAGS ONLY


I'm crawling out of my cave once again and rejoining the real world.  I know many are having peaks and valleys this year in JLand.  I can't say I have terrible things happening; just some stressful things.  Most or all concern my children.  Honestly, as a mother, I feel huge elation when they are happy and the deepest pain when they stumble or fall.

Last week was a week of both elation and pain.  It started on Tues, tax day.  No problem.  Taxes are done; my federal is in the bank already (hunh? lol), and the FAFSA is done.  My young one called and had some bad news about her tests and would probably need a LEEP procedure which consists of hooking an electrode to her leg and then zapping out the bad cells.  She had a more thorough biopsy done.

No sooner did I get off the phone with her then Joe called and got his "thanks but no thanks" letter from the Steamfitters.  His asthma came up during the interview.  I really think his not being chosen had nothing to do with his interview but the fact that welding and asthma do not mix.  Asthma is an occupational hazard of welding.  But, I can't, for the life of me help him see that.  He sees failure and stupidity, once again, which he most definitely is neither.  He feels that I think he is a burden.  Not so.  When I had my three, they didn't come with an expiration date.

I crawled in my hole and persevered.  It's hard to be gone for 11 hours every day; super hard as I get older.  We actually thought we might get compressed work schedules in my division and were picking our schedules.  Didn't happen because we only have one supervisor, our division chief.  A supervisor has to be in the division for all schedules.  I can't say I blame ours for not wanting to be there 10 hrs every day; five days a week. It was a nice thought, though, for a day or two.

Friday came....a peak.  Megan was at work and texted me.  Her further testing came back the same as it has been.  She is fine for six months again.  Elation!  She went to Quiznos and picked up two salads.  We ate at my work because nobody was around to watch the office at lunch.  As soon as she got back to work, she texted me that she got the "boot."  She has two more weeks left on her internship and then she will be unemployed :(  UGH!  But this is how the world of big finance works.  Nothing is guaranteed from day to day.  I was shocked.  And now, I have to wonder how in the world those college loans will get paid back in such a chaotic career.

I'm sure that God has something in store for both my young ones.  Joey has lost faith.  That worries me.  I haven't, though, so I continue to pray for all three.

I took a day of vacation today.  I build up 2 a month and don't use a whole week of vacation ever anymore.  I had some viral thingie over the weekend with a headache and throwing up.  I'm recharging my batteries today.

So, I'm asking for prayers, good thoughts, etc. to be sent for Meg and Joe. 

Here are a couple more snags.  I'd tag them but don't see where I could fit a name, and I'm lazy.  I have a few more that are sitting on my hard drive that I'll add later.   Hugs N Love   CHRIS




lv2trnscrb said...

(((Chris))) our kids!! I honestly think it was a lot easier when they were younger and fussy and cranky and cried all the time then these days of uncertainty and anxiousness as we watch them strive for independence and a purpose and struggle as they do so. you are right, don't lose faith, cling to ever single promise the Lord has made in his Word and keep praying

hope you feel better soon!!

these were great graphics you made!


specialadyfink said...

These are adoable-I did some snagging,LOL.
My kids are goiing through a rough time also.One is a semi driver and there's just no work out there -the other  is living in a place that is falling apart and trying to buy a home-with no credit to her name,((sigh)) makes us wonder how we did it with no help from parents,but we did...
sending hugs and prayers

jeadie05 said...

Oh Chris ,it is no wonder you feel down at the minute ,Poor  Megan ,and so sorry to hear Joey didnt get the job ,things can only get better Jan xx,

nortenadcorazon said...

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Thinking of U *Cab :)
I Hope The Tag Comes Out....
I appreciate Ur Shares~Thank U So Much!
HuGGs&Prayers Sent

bhbner2him said...

Some important reminders in some cute tags!  May your day be bright and beautiful.  -  Barbara

nortenadcorazon said...

:( I see it didn't I will learn eventually how To add.

thegirlnexdoor77 said...

Same ol Chris I love and adore...wishing there were more like you in the world..will be praying for you all and also praying that you all get a jolt of self worth and are an awesome person my friend!!!  have a good week!  Hugs,TerryAnn

lattedah711 said...

You certainly have a really good attitude about everything.  Things are happening all over that seem to be taking a huge toll on us.  We have to hang in there for our kids.  Sending prayers your way for you and yours.  :)    Tracy

chat2missie said...

I'm keeping both Meg and Joe in my prayers! Hope you have a good day, and I love your snags.

cayasm said...

Hope things improve soon for Meg and Joe and wishing you a speedy recovery.
Take care


siennastarr said...

{{{{Chris}}}   I swear you and I were cut from the same mold!  I loved what you said "When I had my three, they didn't come with an expiration date."  OMG!  No truer words have been spoken.  I feel the exact same way.
Sometimes, it's so hard to make our kids understand that not getting what you want doesn't always mean failure. Things always work out for the best, in the end.  We, as adults, have a hard time understanding that sometimes.
I'm glad all came out well for Meg, as far as the tests go.  I know that is something that is going to be hanging over her head for a while.  Always the waiting and wondering.
You know I am here for you, my friend, always.  Thank you so much for the uplifting and supportive comment you left in my journal.  
You're the best, and I love you with all my heart!


bojgill4375 said...

Glad to see you back in the real world. lol Sure you wanna come back?? lmbo I have been having some peaks and valleys recently! Ugh! lol Prayers for your daughter. My husband is a retired Pipefitter. It is very hard to get into the union. My husband has recommended several guys over the years and some of them did not make it into his local. Has nothing really to do with the guy who puts in for it. A lot depends on how many are (as they call it) are sitting on the bench waiting for work that is not available. Hard to see things when younger but when older you can look back at life and understand some of the things that God did not hand us. In the back of my mind I have to repeat... there must be a reason. Not easy to do at times, is it? Will keep all of you in my prayers. Cute snags.. TY for sharing. Hope you have a blessed day. Janie

rdautumnsage said...

I love that comment that there is no expiration date for our kids...there really isn't. Every time my daughter gets sicks even though she's living on her own with her fiance she comes knocking on my door. I worry about her surviving with her new husband deploying off to Iraq for a year and a half in Sept. She's living in PA and refuses to move closer to us, so we can be there for her. According to her Gary's(her fiance)parents are nearby as well as a support group of other women who's husbands, bf will be deployed at the same time.

Delighted to know Megan is good for another 6 months. I will keep both Megan and Joe in my prayers on the smoke dear friend. Life at most is unpredictable, we even the odds up with love. (Hugs) Indigo

tpiez4me said...

Poor happy medium here eh?  Sorry to hear it.  Son has to learn that health is an issue not to be taken lightly by him or a potential's not stupid!!  I'm sure he's good at the work - ventilators would help.
Megan's test results are certainly something to celebrate! and I hope it continues to give her good news.
Chin up my PA friends!  All will be good soon.

astoriasand said...

Aww Chris I do hope and pray too all goes well for Joey and Megan in the future .I am sure the Good Lord will answer all our prayers.I am praying hard for all of you.Sorry to read you got the bug over the weekend I too got one like flu acheing all over.It has dissapeared now thank goodness.I am hoping you soon feel better and know you are in my thoughts always.Thanx for the lovely graphic I snagged one just the job for my next post.You are not lazy by the way.You work so hard and you are a wonderful caring mum too.So stop worrying.All will come right in the end.Hugs .Take Care God Bless Kath astoriasand http;//

jjdolfin9 said...

I'm sorry Chris.  We are only as happy as our unhappiest kid...boy is that the truth.  Will keep your whole family in thoughts and prayers.  Love ya girlfriend.
Hugs, Joyce

carolsixpac said...

Said a prayer and sure hope things get better...keep the faith---gorgeous tags honey.big hugs are coming your way.

springangel235 said...

Forgot to mention...I loved all tags...and snagged them all...hugs and love you!!!!

springangel235 said...

I am so sorry for all the pain you and your lovely family are going through...and Joe too.  Yes, as Mom's we deal with it all...sometimes it hits us hard as it did you.  Your a strong lady...a lady who will find the right answers to all your questions..God will guide you and lead you all.  Good news for Megan...and being fine for those 6 months and praying for future test to also be the same....I felt like crying when I read what came unfair...what is going on in our country...things need to be repaired and and lives back to the days of happiness.  
Many hugs and much love to all..

lanurseprn said...

Hi Chris,
What stress you have been under! I'm sorry you have to watch your children go through such trials. My son is still in high school and I know that my time is coming to watch him go through such things.  Tell Joe not to give up hope. Tell him it took me MANY years to find a job I can enjoy....or at least tolerate! So you can't give up!
And poor Megan. I am keeping you and your family in my prayers, as you always do for me. Sending you lots of hugs and love, too!
Love the tags...I snagged them all! Thanks Chris.
Love you MUCH,
Pam xoxox

nightmaremom said...

{{{Chris}}} sending good thoughts and tons of prayers...   glad the tests came out ok....    they'll both do great with a job..  have no fear the perfect one didn't come by yet :)
Love the snags
love ya

linnpooh said...

I'll be keeping Meg & Joe in prayer. Thank you for the snags, they are beautiful.

Pooh Hugs,

lisa41076 said...

Chris, will be keeping Meg and Joe in my prayers, thanks for the awesome snags, Hugs Lisa

hugsdoodlewacky said...

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((CAB)))))))))))))))))))I will be praying for both of your kids that they will find a good job and that Joey will find faith again.

princesssaurora said...

I am sending you and yours lots of prayers.  I truly believe that when one door closes, another one opens... I hope it will soon for your Meg and Joe.

be well,

jmoqueen said...

Awww what a week :(  Poor Joey I hope he realises soon that he is not a failure xx  Poor Megan what a day she had elation and then bad news :(  Give her a big hug from me xx


carolelainedodd said...

Thanks for the snags.  Cute.
Sorry it's been such a bad week for you and yours.  I'm sure something will turn up for them.
My son has Asthma, and he always used to apply for jobs where he would be breathing in fumes all day.  You couldn't tell him either.  He's good now though.  Got a job driving an artic.  He loves it.!!!
Keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers.
Take care

queeniemart said...

Those tags are GORGEOUS, Chris. Thank you for offering them.
i HATED to hear that Joe didn't get the job. :((  I know how sad this makes him and you too. Damnit, he deserved it!! Loved knowing Meg is ok....hate to hear she has to go job hunting. You always have my friendship and prayers. I am just a phone call away. I LOVE YOU

sunnybethe said...

Oh Chris I am feel so badly for your kidlings.  Oh the student loans..If you unemployed and you notify the lender they put it on hold.  When I went on disability I recieved a letter inthe mail one day saying that the loan was deferred indefinately.  Great tags Chris~I snagged!  hugs, Bethe

hollistergirlx1 said...

Beautiful Work You have here and a Great Blog! Def going to add you to my alerts! Looking forward to coming back!

cherry2sweet2eat said...

Joey should see his value someday he will find a job that actually suits him and his needs it just takes time. Somethings dont work out like we always want it to but it doesnt work out for a reason.

frankandmary said...

I had someone tell me once: You are only as happy as your saddest child.  Yikes.  I can understand that though, truly.  I hope things begin to go better for everyone. ~Mary

gehi6 said...

Oh my thought will be with Joe and Megan as I think like you the years following all the education and preparation are sometimes fraught with disappointment and frustration, but when there is a will ways can be found even if pay back of college loans has to wait. Persistence does pay off eventually but it is getting everyone through their disappointments that is important.  Good thoughts will follow!  Gerry  

carolsixpac said...

Just stopping by to say hello and send hugs your way.

maryajacobs5 said...

Sometimes the whole of life is just a mystery, out there to stress us beyond belief.  Loved your second graphic, and think I will use it with my next post


scottsoperson said...

obama was one of the leaders of farrakhan's million man march.

an hamas-linked group may have been raising money for obama.

joe1700 said...

Where ya been?  Just saying hello.  joe

kwstkat48 said...

I love your song! Whats the name and band? thanks!

carolsixpac said...

Just stopping by to say hello and hope your having a great weekend! Great Music!

springangel235 said...

Just letting you know you are thought of today...hope you are well...and your family too..hugs and love,

hugsdoodlewacky said...

((((((((((((((((((((((((((CAB)))))))))))))))))))I just want you to know,I am praying for you and I care.

xxroxymamaxx said...

Hi Chris.  I just wanted to wish you a very happy Mother's Day.  I hope it is a wonderful one for you.  And I hope things have gotten better for Meg and Joe.  Love you, Shelly