I know these two have been around in various journals in different forms because these are definitely daily tubes from our PSP group.
I wanted to explain to some about my many moods and the smoking thing. It's very hard to those who have never smoked to realize what it is like to "give up" nicotine. Nicotine is a drug.....a drug that produces pleasure. It is added to cigarettes to addict people to them. Nicotine is not dangerous, in itself, except that it is addictive. The 100's of toxins in cigarettes are the problem. Without nicotine, I doubt anyone would smoke more than one cigarette.
Having spent the last 16 years living with nicotine and the pleasure it was giving me is the problem I'm dealing with. It's a grieving process of sorts. It's a craving that will probably always be there although it will lessen as time goes on. I'm not always a happy camper. Sometimes I would love to puff away and feel that pleasure but I won't. I'm taking Prozac for now. The doctor would have loved to add Wellbutrin but I had a concussion in a car accident. There is a risk of seizures with Wellbutrin because of this so I'm just continuing to forge ahead.
Tonight, my three children and I are going out to dinner with my mom. My cousin and her hubby are here from Chicago. They are taking the whole family out to dinner. It will be a nice time. We're expecting some huge storms (again) so I'm thinking Joey will drive. He's the best. I'm off to get a cut and color...whoo hoo. I need one badly so I'm hoping to be looking super cute...hehe
Hugs to all....Chris