Saturday, August 25, 2007

More to be snagged or tagged

    

I know these two have been around in various journals in different forms because these are definitely daily tubes from our PSP group.

I wanted to explain to some about my many moods and the smoking thing.  It's very hard to those who have never smoked to realize what it is like to "give up" nicotine.  Nicotine is a drug.....a drug that produces pleasure.  It is added to cigarettes to addict people to them.  Nicotine is not dangerous, in itself, except that it is addictive.  The 100's of toxins in cigarettes are the problem.  Without nicotine, I doubt anyone would smoke more than one cigarette.

Having spent the last 16 years living with nicotine and the pleasure it was giving me is the problem I'm dealing with.  It's a grieving process of sorts.  It's a craving that will probably always be there although it will lessen as time goes on.  I'm not always a happy camper.  Sometimes I would love to puff away and feel that pleasure but I won't.  I'm taking Prozac for now.  The doctor would have loved to add Wellbutrin but I had a concussion in a car accident.  There is a risk of seizures with Wellbutrin because of this so I'm just continuing to forge ahead.

Tonight, my three children and I are going out to dinner with my mom.  My cousin and her hubby are here from Chicago.  They are taking the whole family out to dinner.  It will be a nice time.  We're expecting some huge storms (again) so I'm thinking Joey will drive.  He's the best.  I'm off to get a cut and color...whoo hoo.  I need one badly so I'm hoping to be looking super cute...hehe

Hugs to all....Chris

 

             

 

28 comments:

emmi2sweet said...

I love your version of this one. Great job. Emmi

nightmaremom said...

your work is fabulous as always!!!  That addiction is the worst.. trust me I know.  Keep going you are doing great... mood swings are forgivable when going thru this.. everyone will forget about them and will be happy with the new you and proud of you too!!
love ya
d

seraphoflove9001 said...

I'm proud of you! It is very hard to quit and I think you've been doing a great job! :o)
Lisa

lisa41076 said...

Chris, enjoy your dinner out tonight, Hugs Lisa

jeadie05 said...

Still a smoker... I can appreciate how well you have done ....love Jan xx

chat2missie said...

Hope you enjoyed your dinner with family.
Missie

pharmolo said...

Chris,
Nicotine is in the tobacco by nature, it's not added to the cigarettes by the manufacturers. I wish you continued strength in your bid to beat the weed.

bgilmore725 said...

I didn't realize that the nature of nicotine was pleasure... I didn't realize that smoking cigarettes was bringing so much pleasure to the smoker. It's good that you are trying to quit... I know it's difficult... having watched my husband kick the habit about 25 years ago. He did say he enjoyed the smoke. Depression did follow. And treatment for that as well. I think it is normal to get depressed in life. There are ups and downs. Living is filled with unhappy things, disappointments, anguish, despair, frustrations... it is depressing. We often find ourselves looking back and thinking "Where have I been? What did I do? Who am I? What should I do now? Where am I going? Who do I want to be?" These are a few of the questions that have guided me ever since I became aware of something or someone in my life greater than myself. I experienced a depression that lasted two years... good things can come from the experience... I found myself exploring the dark depths of my soul during that time. It was uncomfortable at times, and downright painful at other times, but it was a much needed journey. I hope you find what you are looking for during this time, and I hope that soon you will feel pleasure, just from being alive, even with its unpleasantness! Hang in there, don't be afraid of the thoughts you are having, explore them, find a good friend to talk to about it, and write (on paper would be best... there is more physical activity in writing with a pen than with typing) about the journey. I love the colors in the bottom tag. Bea

lanurseprn said...

Have you tried that nicotine patch? I have used it on patients in the hospital who can't smoke during their hospitalization. I don't know if it works....but it might be worth a try.
Your graphics are beautiful!
Love ya,
Pam xoxox

bhbner2him said...

Being as there are so many ways to be addicted to cigarettes (chemically, phsycologically, even the rituals one goes through with each one)  I think you are very brave!!!  And especially because of all the toxins that gets added to the tobacco along the way....I think you are very wise!!!  I'm praying for you to have complete success!!!  -  Barbara

quiltsnroses said...

Oh my gosh, can I relate to what you are going through!  I loved smoking and I hated smoking.  It helped me concentrate, I got more done, etc. etc.  When my Mom was suffering from lung cancer, she hoped that I would be able to quit.  Still I smoked.  After she passed on, I still smoked even while  crying and praying to find a way to quit, and hating myself because I could not give up the addiction.  Then one day, in the course of a getting an x-ray before surgery for something pretty insignificant, a tumor in my lung was discovered.  Talk about scared!  At the same time, one of our city's baseball coaches was also diagnosed with a lung tumor.  His was nonoperable and he has since passed on.  My tumor was operable.  I smoked up to the morning of my surgery.  I have not smoked  since.  I am cured of smoking but not of wanting a cigarette sometimes.  I am one of the lucky ones.  Don't give in to the cravings.  You will be yourself again one day, I promise, and you will be so glad to be free, free, free.

jckfrstross said...

so glad you are back and writing:) enjoy your weekend

Deb

queeniemart said...

i smoked for 12 yrs and quit in 1995.....cold turkey....i understand what you are going thru and you said it perfectly. Smoking relaxes you. You truly have added yrs to your life by stopping. I have missed you in a million ways and hope you continue to update. I pray the dinner went well...i love you so, lj

tendernoggle said...

I think you are doing great! Oh, I know too well the cravings for a cigarett...Thank God it finally left me...
Love ya,
carlene

princesssaurora said...

I imagine it is very difficult... but I think many of us just want to be there and be a support for you, Chris, while you adjust!  Sorry if I ever seemed like I didn't get it.  I hope you have a lovely dinner and you enjoy your cut and color today!

be well,
Dawn
http://journals.aol.com/princesssaurora/CarpeDiem/

nay0114 said...

Hope you have a great dinner with your family.
Take care, Chrissie

fisherkristina said...

Thanks for explaining all that about cigarettes, Chris.  Wow, I really didn't know.

Krissy
http://journals.aol.com/fisherkristina/SometimesIThink

cherry2sweet2eat said...

i've seen it around too but i luv what you did with that tube its amazing.

queenb8261 said...

I totally get the addiction thing. I don't know if I told you this. You know my mom died of emphysema, but for the first couple of yrs she just she just couldn't quit. She finally did. (We THINK). However all over the house we'd find a smoke or 2 hidden ...even in the freezer. I know it's hard to believe & easy to say...but it WILL get better, but it Will get better. Keep up the good work. Your're doing awesomely. Luv ya bunches, Barb

kalekinileilani said...

I love the top one. that says days are dark on deary with Sally Please...hugsss love...and many thank yous for all the wonderful tags Sally

astoriasand said...

You have done fantastic Chris with the stopping smoking.I admire you.I have only just got this alert ,so I hope you had a great time with your family and enjoyed your meal out.Hope the haircut and colour turned out swell too.Thanx for your lovely comments.I will be trying to keep up to alerts until I close for my hol.I''ll give you a shout when I land on your soil He-He!! Take Care God Bless Kath
astoriasand http://journals.aol.co.uk/astoriasand/MYSIMPLERHYMES

acoward15 said...

I like the top one with this entry.
http://journals.aol.co.uk/acoward15/andy-the-bastard

rdautumnsage said...

I know how difficult it is to give up the habit, I , myself have yet to succeed. I think it's amazingly courageous that you continue to stick to your guns and not smoke. I hope the dinner with the kids went well and everyone had a great time. Your in my thoughts dear heart. (Hugs) Indigo

hugsdoodlewacky said...

((((((((((((HUGSTOYOU)()))))))))))))))))))I know its hard,I watched my Mom,quiting,and smoking again and quiting again,She has stoped on Her own.But still wants none to this day.I also know what its like to have an addiction.For me being addicted to pain killers,would love one now.Let me tell you,I would take 10 in one day.I can actullay be honest with myself.Your doing good.Keep it up.Have a fun time with your familt.I love your graffics.

gehi6 said...

I always like to come to your journal and see that you have been there recently.  I sometimes don't know how all you working moms who have kids, worries, and carrying a heavy load get done what you do, besides visit journals and make cute tags and snags and kick nicotine, too.  That's a big one.  I know how hard my son has been struggling to kick it.  I will just be so proud of you for struggling with such a monster.  I did not realize until I had Pierre as a companion what a powerful addiction to cigarettes is all about.  I was never awre of my dad smoking in the house unless he was drinking.  He was always so busy he would just be in and out for meals.  I know my ex lived for cigarettes, and wouldn't go to relatives places who didn't want him to smoke.  I credit my Mormon background for none of us five sisters taking up smoking  I would like to snag the one that says "into every life a little rain must fall.'  I am hurting tonight and must write a poem to try to get over it.  Gerry

springangel235 said...

I loved both tags...and at least I, fully understand about the smoking moods...my son is a smoker who won't quit.  You are one strong lady...and again, I am sooooo very proud of you.  Many hugs and love,
Joyce

mammaw2004 said...

Mammaw and Lisa please

epistleoftruth said...

Beautiful!  cici